My top 3 worst traits... (but I'm still adorable ok)

Is it sad that I actually spent a good amount of time deciding which ones to post because I have a lot of bad traits? Well, this leads to my very first point...

1.) I always put myself down - 15 years ago, this would have been a different story. I used to sing in front of everyone, volunteer, lead the class, etc. I had a lot of confidence back then, but somehow, it turned into the complete opposite - I simply doubt myself about pretty much everything. I started feeling afraid to try out new things, because I just knew that I can't do it. I stayed inside my own cave, didn't dare step outside of my comfort zone, and just let others do it for me because I have no confidence.

2.) I tend to push people away - 3 of the most treasured people in my life are sadly no longer around me, because I tend to just push them away instead of dealing with my emotions. I act hastily and come up with decisions without thinking about it throughly, I just do and say whatever the hell I want without even realising that I am pushing people away. I'm now slowly learning how to avoid this, because I can't afford to lose more people! How I wish I could take back my actions and words, maybe someday...

3.) I am a good liar - So good that my mum actually went to my room 2 nights ago and said: "Hey, my daughter who's so good in lying, what should I tell my boss tomorrow for being absent?" Don't get me wrong, I'm not a compulsive liar, just a great one who can cover up lies as long as I want/can. Although, I use it for good (?) reasons... like returning my brother's iPod because he dropped it... and told the store manager all the shit I could think of just so they will repair it under the warranty. 

Okay, I know it says top 3 but I really needed to add this one...

4.) I am Blair Waldorf's twin - Scheming is my second name. I've been doing it before I even had my first communion, and I still do it every time I have (?) to. Sometimes, I feel bad, sometimes I feel good... and when I feel good, I think that means I'm a sadist for that day.

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My apologies.

I am on a blogging rut and thankfully, I have Jenni's May blogging challenge to serve as a guide! Today's writing prompt is about my favourite posts in my archives but I'd rather take up the topic that I missed a few days back. So today, I am going to issue some public apologies.

• To my parents who just want me to get a degree and a nice job, I am sorry to tell you that I put up a charade every Tuesday morning. You think that I already left the house at 6am and already on my way to uni, but the truth is, I am at the back of our house, waiting for you to leave so I can go back inside and sleep again. 

• Dear girl, you are right about your accusations and I deeply apologise. I don't even know if you read my blog, but here you go.

• To my body who just wants to be fit and sexy, I am so sorry for pigging out every day. I always promise you that you can wear a bikini someday but don't hold on to that, I simply can't stop shoving fatty food inside my mouth.

• To the people I fooled when we were in middle school, I am truly sorry for taking advantage of your gullible minds. What I've said is NOT true, your moles do NOT indicate your personalities. So to the girl who thought she will commit domestic violence when she gets older because she has a mole on her hand, that is complete bullshit. Again, I am sorry.

• To my friends who had to clean up my puke when I got so drunk and wasted last year, I apologise for having to deal with that nasty stuff. I learnt my lesson anyway.

• To our maid who had to deal with my craziness when I was like 7, I'm so sorry for cutting and damaging your panties and thongs. I just felt so angry that you wouldn't give me what I wanted, but that is no excuse, and again, I am sorry.

• To my one and only brother, I am so sorry for blackmailing you when you were still a toddler. I knew that you were so scared of Chucky the possessed doll and used that to boss you around so that Chucky "won't come after you at night". 

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Life Lately || Blog Update.

At last! I've now finished all my assignments for this semester, the only thing that I need to do is start revising for my final exams. To be honest, I'm just so keen to get it over with because I am so done with this semester already. 

Also, after my finals, I can finally get back on blogging groove! Before I get so excited, here's a quick list about my blog, shop, and real life updates.
1.) I am TEMPORARILY closing down my shop, mainly because I already have too much stuff on my plate and I really want to focus on my finals. Another reason is because my shop will undergo a rebranding, and I will need YOUR help for this! Stay tuned ;) HOWEVER, if you REALLY need an illustration, hit me up via email.
2.) I'm living a double life. I go to my uni then go straight to Auckland Uni after my lecture (sometimes, even before my lecture finishes) I met a whole lot of new people and learnt all the latest juicy gossips ;) My friends are fishing there all the time so I had my own rounds of fishing as well (and by fishing, I mean going around town to look for cute guys.... I know, I know, that is so middle school)
3.) I told a few friends about my happy crush in their campus and it spread like wildfire. One of them even invited the guy over to our table and took a quick snapshot of me and him. No, I won't post the photo ;)


4.) I've been pigging out like crazy for the past few weeks. I mean, yes I do eat a lot... but I'm eating more than usual (and more than what's recommended) It's driving my mind and body nuts since I am really determined to get that banging body before summer but at this point, I think it's already impossible. Considering the fact that I consumed 2 cans of fizzy drinks, beef curry, mac and cheese, and chicken pasta yesterday, it's hard to get over this fatty habit. OH WELL.
5.) Late nights during the weekdays = best part of my week. Even though I have blood shot eyes and hideous breakouts/eyebags, I would still love to hang out with mah homies and have night drives whilst just talking about basically anything. I have friends from the north, east, west, south, and central, it's kinda hard to juggle my time but in the end, it's all worth it!


6.) Finding great inspiration and words of wisdom at the most unexpected time and places = best thing ever. I mean, just look at the photo above, isn't it great?

7.) I played freaking Twister at Auckland Uni for a Starbucks voucher. Also, I wanted to show off my flexibility skills... takes heaps of practice aye ;) Don't worry, it only looks like I was molesting the guy but I wasn't ;)

8.) Lastly, here's a selfie so you'll always remember me.


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Favourite photo of myself... and the reason why.

This photo was taken on 27 May, 2011 (17 years old). It was taken by my then bestfriend and I have no make-up on. The reason why I like this photo is because I was so happy that day, I felt invincible and so contented. I also had no idea what the hell I was wearing (trust me, if you could only see the whole body shot, you'll shake your head and call the fashion police) I was carefree, didn't care how I looked, and just posed and smiled at the camera.
I wasn't fat in that photo yet. That's the main reason.

Also, I stole my friend's hat. Well, his sister got it for me and said I should take a photo with it. 

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