On Picking Myself Up Again.

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It's funny and comforting how life easily changes its course. If I updated my blog a little more than a month ago, this post would have a completely different vibe. August was definitely a hard and painful month for me, as I had to pick myself up and accept the fact that I need to let go of certain things. It was an agonising process that I had to go through day after day. I think the hardest part was waking up in the morning and realising that it's another new day that I need to endure. Another day of remembering all the things that are causing me pain. Another day of wishing that I could somehow just take a break from everything, but I know I couldn't because the world doesn't stop for anyone. Even though it was too hard to get the fuck out of bed and face reality, I had to. 

Week after week, things somehow got better. I went out of town, joined a camp, met tons of new friends, caught up with old friends, spent a shit ton of money for make-up and clothes, read books, watched TV series, stayed over at friends' house, and many other things that I haven't done for a while. I kept myself busy and stepped out of my comfort zone. And somehow, it helped me realise a lot of things, as well as look at life in a different perspective. In those weeks, I managed to pull myself out of the grave that I buried myself in. 

I would be lying if I say that I'm completely ok now - of course not. There are still days when I feel completely "off" and wish that things ended differently. But I am glad that in most days, I knew that it was the right decision and I'm better off where I am now. That I deserve better and know that everything happened for a reason. That life has so many things in store for me, and I cannot wait to witness it.

Now, waking up in the morning isn't so hard anymore. I am no longer greeted by painful memories and emotions. Waking up no longer means it's another day to endure pain, but rather facing opportunities that lie ahead in front of me. I'm beginning to love myself again, and no longer wish to just 'disappear' from everything. I've already accepted the fact that I can't go back and need to just keep moving forward. 

If I updated my blog a little more than a month ago, I would not have talked about hope and acceptance. I was in a completely different state. And I am glad that I am able to share a positive one instead of pain and misery. I do know that all of us have our own problems that drag us down in the most painful way. And I also know that we can get through this. I know for sure that this isn't the last time when life will test my strength but I find comfort in knowing the fact that when that dreaded time comes, I know I can get through it again. No matter what and how hard it is. 

So if you're reading this and going through something that you think you'll never overcome, I hope you find solace in knowing that everything that you're feeling right now is temporary. It might be still there tomorrow, you might still be dreading waking up in the morning. But I know for sure that it will pass soon enough. 

The Happy List

It's been months since my last blog post and I feel like it's about time to get back on blogging! I took quite a long break and I really do miss blogging so hopefully, I'll blog regularly again. 

1.) Friends who helped me survive a tough break up and did their best to help get back on my feet again! These past few weeks have been all about moving on, acceptance, and starting over - and I could not have done it without them. I've been offered a place to stay, a day at a resort, unlimited food, emotional support, funny stories, and a whole lot more. Incredibly thankful and happy for having them <3

2.) TV shows for keeping me sane. Seriously, when going through a tough time, TV shows are like my back up friends. They keep me sane for hours, for as long as I want. I'm watching Grey's Anatomy all over again for the 3rd time now and still doesn't get old. 

3.) Seeing the bigger picture.

4.) Slowly stepping out of my comfort zone. I'm going to a camp (targeted at 18 + ) on Friday and I'm so excited (and quite nervous too!) I never liked camps because I hated the idea of being surrounded by strangers and sleeping with them in the same room but hey, here I am now!

5.) I lost a couple of pounds and my old clothes finally fit me again. 

6.) Seeing friends whom I haven't seen for months/years during a party last week. I had a total blast. I wish I could spend my Saturday nights like that forever.

7.) Randomly hearing one of those songs that just makes me feel... inspired. It's what actually motivated me to type in blogger.com and do this post. If you're curious, I'm talking about this song. You're welcome.

8.) Hearing the words that I needed to hear to lift up my spirit. 

9.) Finally getting an 8-hour sleep - uninterrupted.

10.) Knowing that I'm on the right track. 

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How long can you go without your phone? || All about the UNICEF tap project.

I came across UNICEF's Tap Project through one of my lecturers and it immediately caught my attention. It's really as simple as it seems: For every minute that you don't touch your phone, a donation will be given to families who don't have access to clean and safe water.

Not surprisingly, this project received mixed feedbacks. Others are praising UNICEF for taking part in such a great project, while others are criticising them for it. Some of the negative feedbacks include "Why do they need to ask people to not touch their phone, when their sponsors have the means to donate right away?" as well as "Nowadays, people feel that they can make a difference even if they don't leave the house and get to know the real life situation of the unfortunate ones."

When I was younger, these questions also entered my mind. The very same questions. This type of project where everyone can participate without much effort has been around for quite some time now, so I eventually figured out my own answers for it.

First, it is just not possible for everyone to dedicate their time and fly to third world countries. Instead of spending money on unnecessary flights, that money can just be put towards donation. Second, I believe that people genuinely care about the situation, knowing that they can at least somehow help DOES make a difference. Their little sacrifices go a long way, and I see nothing wrong with that.

Yes, the sponsors have the means to donate without the tap project, but it's the idea of people helping others in their own little ways. So far, I've done nearly 4 hours and I'll try to boost the number of hours as hard as I can. You can start making a difference too by clicking the UNICEF Tap Project. Encourage your friends to do the same! It will be fun, I promise ;)

*This is not a sponsored post.

Life Lately.

One blog post a month... now that doesn't seem like me at all! I really do miss updating my blog so here's a quick post about what I've been up to in the past few weeks. And if you scroll down a bit more, you might find a little treat ;)

I bought this lovely Kate Spade bag for uni because let's face it, a nice bag will motivate me to actually go to uni.

Also bought myself a car - my very first big purchase. About time! I'm having a good time designing its interior and I'll make a post about it as soon as I can ;)

I also managed to lock myself out again... for the 3rd time in a span of one year. I need a lanyard!!!

This was parked near our uni... Just a daily reminder not to cheat.

Attended one of my friend's Philosophy lecture... at a different uni. It was really interesting so I'll sit in again when I have the time.

Working on my design shop again after a LONG break! Readers get a 15% discount off anything from the shop with the code: BLOG15 (click here!)

So that's a snippet of what I've been up to lately. Life's great, I've done so many things that I promised myself at the beginning of the year. I'm slowly but surely crawling out from my comfort zone; I volunteered to join a debate, I volunteered at a fundraising event which is really exciting. I have so many goals and achieving them little by little just gives me more motivation.

Life lately is beyond great. I hope you guys are all doing well! I miss reading blogs and I'll find time to catch up soon.