I finally know what I WANT to do! Now what?


For the past few years, I've been thinking whether my life's going to the right direction or not. I've been raised in a third world country so my parents never failed to remind me everyday that I need to make sure that my future is secured. When I was young, I thought it was gonna be easy - go to school, get a job, and earn money.

As I grew up, I realised that I need to make certain choices to ensure that I won't disappoint my parents, and of course, myself. We moved to New Zealand, started a new life, and adjusted to a whole lot of changes. My perspectives and goals changed, my direction diverted, and those things overwhelmed me. I found myself questioning a lot of things, why I need to do this and that, why I can't make my own decisons, and so many other stuff. 

For years, I felt completely lost. My "plan" has always been like this: finish high school, go to university, get a degree that would get me "great" jobs, and earn money. I never had any other alternative. There was a time when I told my parents that I wanted to learn photography because I could see myself traveling around the world and taking wonderful photos.. and guess what - they were horrified. They told me that there are no jobs for photographers and that photography is not even considered a degree. There was also a time when I told them that I might consider taking up Bachelors of Education because I've tutored several people in English and I really enjoyed it. Again, they quickly brainwashed me and told me that it was just a phase. 

Right now, I'm taking Marketing and Information Systems. I can't say that I hate it, but I don't love it either. I still feel that I need to do something else. Perhaps a sideline or a new hobby. Last week, I bought a new camera and I decided that I will take an online photography course (and upon completion, I will get a diploma! isn't that exciting?) I've been practicing like crazy ever since I laid my hands on my lovely Canon 60D. I told myself that I will take great photos someday, and hang those pictures proudly on my wall. As for now, the photography course remains as a goal. I still need to save up for tuition fees. So I came up with another plan, I will open up a shop before the year ends and hopefully, people will support it!

More details about the shop will be posted next month. I'm so excited about this. Now that I finally know what I want, it's time to work really hard and enjoy the things that I love doing!

To sum it all up, I'm glad that I chose to stick up with my personal instincts and decisions. The moment I started following my heart rather than my head, I felt way happier. I don't know where this direction will lead me but for now, all I can say is I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED!


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7 comments :

  1. It’s nice to know that you are following your heart. Don’t imitate others; follow yourself what you want or what you love to do in life. This burning desire will surely lead you to success.

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  2. That is so awesome. You need to follow your heart and if opening this shop is what you feel you need to do then by all means do it. You have to go by what your instincts tell you. If you are not passionate about something then it means you won't stick with it. Go with your instincts!!

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  4. We achieve in proportion to what actually we attempt. Its better to live a meaningful and productive life than living on other’s directed track. It’s not the absence of thing, which makes you disappointed but the absence of goal. It’s important to identify our track and to reach target goal through that track.

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  5. @ Gina - Just what I needed to hear, thanks! :)

    @ Tina - Hey! I'm following you now :)

    @ Michelle - I agree :)

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  6. What an incredible emotional (and physical!) journey you have been on already. I guess life is really a work in progress and you will change and evolve and make mistakes etc but you just need to keep moving forward and opening those doors because you never know where they will lead!
    I've been at many crossroads in my life and sometimes I don't really know what I am heading towards but I certainly know what I am leaving behind and often, that is enough :)
    Living in NZ gives you something that your parents didn't have-the luxury of choice. They may not understand your actions because their experiences as a young adult were so different to yours but at the end of the day, it is your life, your happiness, your heart and your choice. Good luck!!!

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  7. I feel you there! You know, that idea that we have to finish college just so we could have a great job and earn money is just totally uninspiring. Sometimes we have to do things not only because we are forced to do so or someone dictated us to but because we are happy with what we do. I'm so glad I found a blog I can certainly relate to! :)

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