|One of the best things that I love about Massey is that it looks extremely beautiful. The environment is just lovely and peaceful, complete opposite of my previous school in the city.|
Hi guys! Thank you so much for your thoughtful comments on my previous blog post. I would be lying if I say that I've improved but I'm definitely determined to get over my addiction. My weekend is basically fully-booked so this may be a good start!
If you recall my planner update on Monday, you know my week is supposedly full of activities and doing a lot of uni-related stuff. Sadly, things didn't go according to plan. I slacked off for 3 days and did absolutely nothing. I've been "busy" reading other blogs, looking for more blogs, promoting my site, working with clients, etc. Sometimes, I even ask myself if I'm really meant to be studying in uni. I mean, I enjoy freelancing and there's so many other things I can do if I don't go to uni. I can spare more time in doing projects and look for other ways to earn a stable income. To be quite frank, I always go to uni but do nothing. I think I've already typed this before but for the sake of those who don't know, Martin and I spend 90% of our time in the library googling random shit and watching videos on Youtube. My heart's not really into the subjects I'm taking. Maybe I'm just lazy? That could be a reason. But deep inside, I know that I still haven't found what I really LOVE doing. I bought a Canon 60D last month because I'm really interested in learning photography but I rarely have the time to practice. I don't know, but it feels wrong being stuck with something that you're not passionate about. Yes, I enjoy uni because of the people around me and all the spontaneous things that happen; but studying my course itself is the main issue I'm referring about.
To be honest, I wanna get over this "phase" (well, if you consider it a phase) I've invested a lot of money for university and feeling unmotivated will get me nowhere. My life's direction has always been about getting at least a bachelor's degree and I guess it's too late to turn back now. I just hope that someday, I will find what I love doing so I can finally break free from all these uncertainties and feel completely happy.
I feel so lost.
I feel so lost.