How should I deal with it?
Have you ever been in a situation or phase when you just stopped doing the things that you used to love, used to be so passionate about, used to really care about? I used to be that kind of person who would organise a hang out and invite everyone I could think of. I used to enjoy listening to my iPod until 3:00 in the morning, but now I can't even stand 2 songs. I used to play my favourite vinyls on my record player until my siblings ask me to lower the volume. I used to do a lot of things that make me happy, and now I can't simply bring myself to even like them.
What scares me is the fact that I'm slowly getting used to it. Nowadays I just find myself working, blogging, reading tweets about the snow in the UK, pigging out, and watching 10 episodes of whatever TV show I can find - and it's getting hard to shake it out of my system. I feel like I'm losing my identity and I have no idea how to get it back
What's worse is when I have to deal with other issues rather than focusing on my personal ones. Rude clients who would demand their money back AFTER they've approved everything, people asking me a lot of questions that I don't want to talk about, having a constant battle with myself about pretty much everything, and the list goes on. At the end of the day, those negative and awful thoughts just keep flashing in my head and the only thing I can do is sleep it off and deal with it the following day. It's a vile cycle that I can't escape because I don't have the motivation to get out of it, and it sucks.
Uni starts next month and I hope it will somehow help me go back to my normal self. I am tired of not knowing what I really want to do, what I should do to make myself happy again. Maybe once uni starts, I'll slowly climb out of my shell and learn how to appreciate the things that I used to love. I just hope that this coming school year would work out just fine, even though a lot of things changed in the past few months. I still haven't come up with a plan, but I know I'll make it through... I always do. I just need time.
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Girl I have been where your at and it is definitely not fun. It will pass though and everything will get better. You just go to push through.
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Almost Endearing
i've been there too, i figured its because as people we're constantly growing, changing and evolving...but change can be so scary...
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I used to dance twice a week, meet up with my friends as often as possible and generally go out more, but now I am finding myself spending more and more time shut up in my room and only emerging to go to work and to eat! I guess the first step is admitting that you are trapped in a bad cycle, which you have done here. But don't worry, before you know it, you will be a busy, social bee, back on your feet and you will feel much better! :)
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Life can be tough sometimes and life can be even tougher when you're hard on yourself and even tougher again when you spend your time trying to please other people, rather then making yourself happy. The only person who counts is numero uno and thats you. Perhaps switch off from the internet for a weekend, have some internet free space because constantly being connected can really mess with your head in the sense that you're never quite switched off.
ReplyDeleteDont worry about trying to figure out what it is you want to do with your life, some of the most interesting people I know have worked / experimented in several areas during their life time and hey, it makes for great stories, experience and a great life too!
If you find yourself trapped in doors, make time for something as simple as a walk, or a trip to the cinema or perhaps get a nice coffee somewhere and again use the time to concentrate on you and just people watch, enjoy the moment and live in the moment.
Things like this tend to happen during winter. I think they call is Seasonal something Depression. Chin up! Grab a cup of Swiss Miss, go for a walk, and come home feeling re-inspired!
ReplyDeletechange is life. not always easy but always good in the end... I came across this today, good exercise to try ;) http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-7508/how-10-can-get-you-7-hours-of-happiness.html
ReplyDeletexo adela
I feel exactly that! I just can't wait to graduate already and dedicate my time to myself, my blog, my family and my friends. School is sucking the life out of me. I haven't even seen my other friends (from outside school) for nearly a year because when I'm home for the weekends I spend time with my family. And usually, quality time with Gab is spent with us watching a movie at home while I'm doing school work right next to him. I'm just so done with this school stage of my life, and I'm not even really getting anything out of it. BLAH.
ReplyDeleteI'm certain though that this will pass... I think every day we should try doing something different outside this cycle we've fallen into, just one single thing. Even little things. And maybe that'll eventually help us to get back up on our feet :)
Change is the only constant in life. And you have the authority to be happy! Perhaps you've simply grown out of the things you used to love, and that is totally okay. :) I know how difficult it is to deal with stress because I'm a stresser myself, but it really is no good for you/your health. Take your time through this rough patch but keep your chin up, Gia. :) I love your blog!
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good luck -hugs- honestly, I've found that sometimes I just go through these times... hanging out with friends helps, since they're basically obligated to love you ;) or exercise- run away all the negative thoughts! (even if you hate it at the time, I promise you'll feel better after) I love your blog though, you're actually one of my favourites to read, so that's definitely not time lost :)
ReplyDeleteIt sucks when you don't even have time for yourself. I know how you feel, although that might be more of my own fault haha. But don't forget about yourself and maybe... accept your 'new you'? And we don't mind you spend so much time in this blog though ^^
ReplyDeletexoxo Appie | vintage150395.blogspot.com
Always here for you beb <3
ReplyDeleteI'm in that exact situation now. I feel you, and I hope this all get better for us, cause it's so hard not knowing your place. I'm sick of it too and I just wish someone could just smack me with a sign with a big fat goal written all over it.
ReplyDeleteFirst: I love your blog so much, followed.
ReplyDeleteSecond: You're a good writer.
Third: I know exactly what you’re talking about and I’m pretty sure that it’s a phase what you’re going trough right now. Your whole life is a learning process with heaps of phases, and you are probably developing. Interests are changing, maybe some interest will come back, maybe not. Just try to experience your feelings and listen to them. Don’t try to ignore or block them, let them come and try to change your thought in positive thoughts. It’s not a negative thing, it’s actually really good. I promise you’ll be ok, as long as you just do your thing and find things that make you happy!
Sanne
Confessions of a blonde
This happens to everyone, don't worry. I am sure you will get back into the swing of things soon. We all need a break sometimes.
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